Ryan’s Miracle Watch 4/7/19

Day 15 in the hospital for Ryan. According to the nurse this morning, he had a bit of a setback last night…possible seizure. He looked good yesterday evening when I left, and the same the day before, only to come in the A.M. and hear that he had a rough night. So, I’ll be staying with him tonight to observe what is actually going on. Please pray that he’ll get the rest he needs, and that he’ll be okay tomorrow. No backward steps from here on out…

Ryan’s Miracle Watch 4/6/19

Today marks two weeks Ryan’s been in the hospital, but it feels more like a month. The days have started to run into each other, and are a blur. I don’t know if it’s from exhaustion or because of my age…or a combination of both. All I know is, it’d be nice if Ryan could come home sooner rather than later, so we can sleep in our own beds…for as long as we want. He looked a lot better today…temp not ideal, but better…O2 sat good…clear eyes. We’re hoping when we go in tomorrow that he’ll be even better, and not like he was a couple of days ago when he took a step back. Not happening if I have anything to do with it. Oh wait! There is. I can pray. Believe me, that’s what I’m doing…constantly…

Lord, Please heal Ryan so he can come home soon. Not your soon, but my soon, which means within two-three twenty-four hour days. Thank you. Amen

Ryan’s Miracle Watch 4/5/19

A few days ago, I met the man in the ICU room next to Ryan’s. His name; Renee Torrez. 92 years old. I waved to him as I stood outside Ryan’s room (the nurses were tending to Ryan for something at the time), and he motioned for me to come into his room. He was sitting in his chair with the biggest smile on his face, and I took a knee before him. His eyes were bright blue and twinkling with a light that I immediately recognized as Jesus’ shining through. His voice was soft, kind and gentle, and told me how good God was and that Jesus was Lord, and how he had enjoyed Jesus’ blessing throughout his life. We talked for about half an hour that day. Since meeting him that first day, I would wave to him and he back, but I couldn’t go into his room to talk anymore, because Ryan has some sort of bacterial infection that has him somewhat isolated, and I didn’t want to infect Renee. Before I left last night, I went over to wave goodbye to Renee, but he was in bed sound asleep. When I arrived this morning, Renee was no longer in his room, and when I asked one of the nurses, she told me he had passed during the night.

Renee is now in the presence of his Lord and Savior, and will enjoy His blessings for…well, ever…

That brief encounter with Renee was nothing short of wonderful; God telling me through him that everything is going to be okay…He’s got this!

Ryan’s Miracle Watch 4/4/19

Luke Souza Update:


Journal entry by Vickie Souza

Luke’s oncologist sent me a text message this evening to let me know that his scan looks good. YAY! PRAISE THE LORD!  The chemo treatments worked!  btw, I’m so thankful that his doctor sent me a message and took the time while away on vacation with her family.  She also communicated with the UCSF doctor who indicated that Luke will continue with treatments with one of the two chemo drugs until his stem cell transplant. We will know more next week once we are in contact with the UCSF staff.  But the good news is…. the results are in his favor and we can proceed towards preparing for the stem cell transplant. 🙂

Thank you so much for all your prayers! They are working and I know they are giving us strength and comfort through this journey.  God bless you all!

love, Vickie and family

I’m going to plagiarise Vickie’s last lines: “Thank you so much for all your prayers! They are working and I know they are giving us strength and comfort through this journey.  God bless you all!” Her sentiments really reflect ours toward all of you who have prayed for Ryan. He’s still battling something. His fever has returned along with lower O2 sats, which requires some assistance from the ventilator. Today, he had three or four X-rays at different intervals to figure out what is going on internally with his digestive system. They’re looking for some sort of blockage. When I left, they still didn’t see anything, but were about to do another X-ray. It’s really hard seeing Ryan laying there with a fever…
Lord, Please…You know my heart and can fill in the blank for me. Amen

Ryan’s Miracle Watch 4/3/19

Got in to see Ryan at around 9:30 A.M. this morning to find him resting quite comfortably…even though he’s still got a bunch of probes attached to his body. He’s got two new pick lines to supplememt the two that are already being used for pumping him full of fluids. So, initially they were giving him antibiotics to fight pneumonia and pancreatitis and they seemed to be working, for those two things anyway, but not for another bacterial bug which is resistant to the meds they’ve giving him. So, they added another med to combat this latest bacteria. It’s hard to know what wire goes where. Let’s hope they’re doing what they need to be doing, because we’ve been here longer than we have been in the past. It would be nice to take him home in the next couple of days. All in all, the nurse staff taking care of him are doing a tremendous job working to get him better. We’ll see what he looks like tomorrow morning…



Ryan’s Miracle Watch 4/2/19

Ryan reached two good milestones today.

  1. His fever finally broke, and he’s now at normal to slightly above normal.
  2. He is on room air, and his O2 sat is holding above 96%

Just prior to me leaving his room this evening, however, he threw up a couple of times, so there’s still something unsettling in his stomach. The doctor isn’t too concerned, but has stopped his trickle feed for now to see if the vomiting stops. By the way, when I actually left, Ryan was resting comfortably; still on room air and with a normal temp.

Two steps forward and one step back is still progress, right?

I can’t wait to get there tomorrow to see a much better (completely) Ryan. Until then, rest well my son. Rest well…

Ryan’s Miracle Watch 4/1/19

So, about a week ago I found out that two of Ryan’s nurses in ICU (a husband and wife team) have a daughter with anoxic brain injury just like Ryan, and they have been caring for her in this condition since 2010. Because of this, they understand Ryan’s needs, and he couldn’t be getting any better attention and care. God amazes me with His provision for Ryan’s needs. Thank you Angel and Michael (appropriate names for these two nurses; Angel and “Michael the Archangel”, as I like to call him).

Will you please add Cassandra, their daughter, to your prayers along with those you so consistently pray for Ryan? Thank you!

God is Good!!

Psalm 84:11   For the LORD God is a sun and shield; the LORD bestows favor and honor. No good thing does he withhold from those who walk uprightly.